Monday, February 28, 2011

I'm Just A Passerby .

这几天我都好想你~看不到你,
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我的一分一秒都过得很慢~好辛苦~
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因为,你是我的唯一,你是我的专属天使,你是我的空气。
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没有你在我的身边,我好不自在,我已经习惯了你,习惯了你在我身边,
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习惯了你的声音,习惯了你的影子,习惯了你的呼吸,还有你的心跳。
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我从来都没有想过没有你陪的日子会那么难过。
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每当我睡醒时都想叫醒你,然后说‘老婆早安’
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每当我睡前都会担心你,想叫你盖好被,不要冷到.还有记得不要流口水弄湿床。
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我每天都祈祷,希望在梦里会遇见你,我会把握机会,牵着你的手,
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大声的告诉你我爱你。我不会放手,我怕我一放手我就会后悔,后悔不多看你一会
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不牵你多一下。
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没有你的笑声,我仿佛也不怎么笑
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当我开心时,我的脑海会想着你,你是否也跟我一样在笑着,是否还比我开心。
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我好想跟你分享我的每一件大小事,让你知道我的生活已经离不开你。
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我的影子全都是你。不管去到哪你永远都不会离开我的脑海。
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我已经不能没有你
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我只想一直陪你,陪你到我生命的最后一天。
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每天都甜甜蜜蜜的,牵着你的手,从黑发牵到白发。
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牵到我们都白了发,掉完牙还要牵。

你给我最后的承诺。怎么答应了却做不到?
不是在给我希望吗?然后在最后给我无比的失望。
我的心,好痛好痛。痛得在呻吟。痛得在淌血。
你说,至少我们还有那少许的回忆。但是亲爱的,你知道那些回忆,对我来说,有多痛,有多伤,有多残忍吗?
朋友?当朋友?我,真的,无法做到。
友情升华一步变成了爱情,但爱情退后一步之后,朋友也做不成。
可是怎么办,我不想当,你最熟悉的那位陌生人。我也拿自己没办法。
这一刻,我告诉自己,如果你在我的面前,我一定不会让你走,就算这一切有多么的卑微。多么的廉价。
但是,这过程还是会有的,还要经历的,只是,我比其他人早了一点。
我哭了,哭得我声音沙哑,喉咙完全痛得在呻吟,眼睛再怎么痛,泪还是一直流。
我很努力,很努力的,不让我的眼泪流泪,可是怎么办。我就是不怎么做到。
我,这次。真的彻底地受伤了。
我哭泣,不是因为我失去你。是因为,我留不住你,更没有勇气去说,我还爱你。
我爱上夜店,不是因为我很想去。是因为,没有人知道我在黑暗里哭泣。
如果你们问我,被刀割伤了,会痛吗?被人盖你一巴掌,会痛吗?被烧水烫伤了,会痛吗?
被老师鞭,会痛吗?跌倒了,会痛吗?被车撞,会痛吗?
我会回答说,很痛。可是,并没有比我受的伤害来得痛。没有我的心痛。没有比我的爱情痛。
我,这次真的跌倒了,很痛很痛。痛得我无法反抗。痛得我死不去,活不来。
当我电话响了,那属于你特别的铃声响了,提醒了我,你有多久没拨打电话给我了。
但是,我却想不到,既然在这种情况下,你才会给我拨那通电话。
我不懂,我到底该笑著,还是哭泣。
我没有勇气,没有勇气的按下那青色的接通键,是因为,不想让你听见,我那呻吟的哭声。我那不懂该怎么办的哭声。

我用华语抒发我所得一切一切是因为,我知道你并不怎么会华语。
我不想让你知道,我,输了。
在爱情的世界里面,我败给你了。
我知道你是一位错的人,但我还是奋不顾身的去爱你,是因为,我以为我能改变结局,改变这一切一切
你对我所谓的感情,是同情,不是爱情。
我没有讨厌你,只是不懂怎么去面对你。
删掉所有关于我的一切的时候,你有没有那么一点,的心疼?有没有,那么一点的不舍得?
我从来都不生气你,不是因为我没有脾气。
我从来都不会在你面前哭,不是因为我没有眼泪,
我从来都不说不,不是因为我愿意。
是因为,我爱你,是因为,我堕落了。坠落在那该死的爱情。
我坚持下去,不是因为我很坚强,是因为,我别无选择了。

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Beloved Mak .

It's 27th of february ! guess what day is it ? maybe this day might meant nothing to you guys but it meant a lot to me . It's my beloved sister BIG DAY , which actually mean her birthday . Awww i bet she having a blast day in IPOH . Without a doubt , i wanted to go back celebrate this awesome day with her so freaking bad . but sorry sister , it's too sad i couldn't make it . i wanted to surprise you at first but i can't plan the time seriously . And yeah i know you've a nice celebration with edward them too . felt thanksful to them cos they get you a memorable day . and yeah no worries , i will gift you one when i am coming back . i promised . (: and lastly said hurray to our 2 years friendship , never ever been ruin or change . ILoveyou , MakKitYan .
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO YOU ! Have a blast day ever (:

The Birthday Girl .




(:

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

loves ♥

although we couldn't meet each other like how other couple doing . sweet like how other couple doing . but i'll be wait for the day we meet. even though its fucking suffer once missing someone but yeah couldn't meet . awwww i hate the fucked up pain so serious ! i am just so EMO when thinking about this . but baby boy you told me that distance isn't a problem . yeah it's not a problem . cos we loving each other . imissyou & i promised that i'll love you with all my strength , now . and forever .

My boyfie favourite song , the song lyric is meaningful


he baby when we are together , doing things that we love . everytime we near a feel like i am in heaven , feeling high . I don't want to let go girl . I just need you know girl . I don't wanna run away . baby you're the one i need tonight . No promises . baby now i need to hold you tight. I just wanna die in your arms . Here tonight. I don't want to run away , I want to stay forever . Thru the time & time . No promises . I don't wanna run away , I don't wanna be alone . No promises. baby now i need to hold you tight. now and forever my love . No promises

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

outings . 9/02/2011

its going out with my beloved sisters who i didn't meet her for a couple of months . felt excited . get up from the bed and preparing , thinking what to wear for my outfit . she's always late , i've no idea what to do while waiting her so i go for saloon have a haircut to spent my time .




camwhore after my haircut .

and yeah after this she's reach so finally . and we're waiting for fish . as you know ipoh's shopping mall is awfully boring . we've no idea what to do )': one hour later fish arrived , they're going for their friend's farewell so they go kopitiam sitting for few hours just to decorate the board for the person . and i'm sitting there waiting for next outing :D my babe girl birthday celebration - Elizabeth wa .
best sister ever - ying
fishy !
they're decorating so carefully .
retarded !
after that , wawal gave me a call told me that she'll fetch me from parade and yeah go for steamboat together . Awww i felt like so joyful cos i needn't go by cab . i dislike taking a cab )':
once i get inside her friend's car , i gave her the present , the present might not satisfied her enough cos imma so rushing for choosing it . forgive me (: and yeah she brings me a necklace too which is PAIRS & TWINS . which means she had the same one also . excited once again . she wear the necklace for me and imma keep showing off that we got the same one ! LOL . it look stupid i know . once we reach the place , we chat , cos sister is not in mood actually . we played around , we ate , and of course we capture lotsa picture too :D both of us addicted in cam whore so badly :D AND sorry sister , i gone first once you haven't cut the cake yet . i am sorry ):
miss you hell much . we'll meet again very soon :(
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you . Elizabeth wawal hope you've lotsa fun tonight .
the birthday girl


the twins necklace !

after wa's celebration , i went to parade kbox with my boyfieeee and my beloved sister , shirley wong . we sang for 3 hours . oh shirley always cried while singing those emo emo song ! felt sad to her )': cheer babe sis , everything's gonna be alright full time outing this day , although its tiring but i felt extremely joyful this day . lovessss !

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Let's go party peoples .

Chinese New Year eve is coming . which is tomorrow :D i can't wait to meet up all my lovely relative who are coming back from their country ! Goshhh , AND of cause i can't wait to have a reunion dinner with them too . it's only happen once a year , i do appreciate it hell lots . (: i am hesitating of after the dinner shall i meet my charming friends up ? they're going to club tomorrow night , IWANTTOO )': my body's itchy , throat itchy , everything itchy . It's totally a entice to me as i am addicted ! but i just afraid i couldn't make it because it's too rush for me ? so yeah after tomorrow , i've lotsa plan with my Sis & Bros . i just await to meet them up , i didn't meet them in ages . miss them hell much . we planned singk , movies , hangout , dating , gamble , overnight at somebody's home , visit upon for angpau , clubbing , gathering & so on ! It's absolutely joyful as i could ensure . Nevertheless , even though i moved to KL for my education , but yeah i realized one thing , my Ipoh buddy's still eternal is a best compare to other